Below are the 14 most recent journal entries recorded in Bodisafa's LiveJournal:

Friday, January 13th, 2006
2:50 am	Hello again. Long time no entry. Well, i figured if i wanted to get my thoughts out without having to bother anyone with the, livejournal would be the place. Tonite was the first time in a while that i've actually felt like a loser. That feeling where i just kinda think that im not actually doing anything with my live, just kinda procrastinating the inevitable, but not moving forward with my life. Most the time i just remind myself that im in college, and that's moving forward because im getting an education, so i can do something with myself. I've moved on past highschool. Im not working the same bullshit jobs, hanging out with the same bullshit activities. Tonite i found myself in a room alone with a friend's roommate, as she passed me a ciggi to have a drag off of, with a bit of adderal in my nose, and a stomach ache from the amount of whiskey i've consumed. Drink to remember, not to forget. Always keep that in mind. But it was the point that i felt a fit the term "loser." Those kids i went to highschool with, who havent done anything with their lives. Just sitting there, passing time, listening to Tom Petty. It made me really thankful to be going snowboarding this weekend, where i can feel alive again, and at least be active and with my girlfriend. I'm happy that my close friends, the ones who'll be there for me, are doing things with their lives, because it keeps me motivated. My girlfriend as well, the girl i might end up spending my life with... She'd moving forward. College. Possibly a very prestigious college on the west coast. Unfortunately if that becomes the case we'll probably break up, which is a shame, but oh well. Shit happens. Maybe we're not meant to be together. Maybe i should actually date a girl my age, maybe a girl who actually LIVES NEAR ME. Only a few downsides with melly. Lives with rents, not 21, and too fucking far away. We'll see though. maybe love'll pull thru. maybe love will turn out to be an illusion. Rite now im happy looking forward to getting back out on the snow, and cuddling up with someone who cares about me. Does she really love me, or is she just infatuated? I dont know. I dont care. Rite now it doesnt matter. That's something that will be determined eventually, and that will be the time that the relationship will come to a crossroads. We'll see when we get to that point. No need to worry about it now. Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: Death Cab (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 16th, 2004
9:41 pm	Catching up Damn. it's been a while. A lot has happened with my friends, and seeing as i can never get ahold of these girls, (grrrrrr.) i just found out. that's where all the random shit came from, i havent had a chance to do those fun little survey things and whatever else, so im catching up all at once. i've just been hella busy, with finals, and transfering, and trying to get a job, and friends getting home from college, and girlfriend, and NO girlfriend, and just yeah. Well let's see... im registered for the fall at evergreen, girlfriend and i broke up because she went back to minisota, single again. im still jobless, although im trying to change that, and i decided against taking classes this summer. Chris came home, jay's been here a while, joe's home for real tonite. Chris left yesterday though, cause he's working at a summer camp on Orcas Island this summer. Been hanging out with jay and mari mostly since gf went home, just been hanging out. My bro is home, but he's only here for a bit, cause he's getting a real apt doing in oly because he's taking summer classes and going for his master's in teaching. Toddy is buying halo this weekend, and after that, i might be gone for a bit, just playing that full time :-D and that's about all i can think of right now, hopefully i'll be writing more now that im done with this HELLISH quarter, finally. I didnt like my classes, but i can bitch about that later. I'll wait until im already pissed off and im sure it'll come out, along with EVERYTHING ELSE, none of which u care about. (i'm not sure who "you" is, i didnt think about it til after i had written it. odd.) I'll also write about the movies i've seen lately, cause i've seen quite a few. and a couple lazer shows as well, so yeah. will talk later. Bodi PS: the mood should be followed by "as all hell", but they didnt have that. Just thought i'd share that. Current Mood: horny Current Music: Royksopp - Eple (1 Comment |Comment on this)
9:31 pm	my drink How to make a bodisafa Ingredients: 1 part competetiveness 3 parts silliness 1 part Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of emotion Username: Personality cocktail From Go-Quiz.com Current Mood: amused Current Music: Placebo - Every me, every you (Comment on this)
9:30 pm	hug me! *HUGS* TOTAL! give bodisafa more *HUGS* Get hugs of your own Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Incubus - Megalomanic (Comment on this)
9:18 pm	heehee. sex. Your Ultimate Purity Score Is... Category Your Score Average Self-Lovin' 15% I wouldn't shake hands, if I were you 65.1% Shamelessness 35.7% Puts 'em on the glass 79.4% Sex Drive 21.1% Humps fire hydrants when nobody's looking 77.7% Straightness 0% Knows the other body type like a map 44.9% Gayness 67.9% Had that experience at camp 83.6% Fucking Sick 53.1% Dipped into depravity 90% You are 33.76% pure Average Score: 72.7% Take The Ultimate Purity Test and see how you match up! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 25th, 2004
12:31 am	i BOINKED her! So joanna and i finally did it, and it was worth the wait. Even having to use a condom, til the pill starts working, it was very amazing sex. it even was worth the pain of doing it only a couple days after getting my crotch peirced. we did it in the bed first, and then again on the floor cause we got into it, and now she can say she fucked on her dormroom floor. SCORE. oh yeah. other things happend that weekend too, didnt they? on friday nite, i visited chris with jay, mari, and jana, mari's friend. it was a lot of fun. we didnt get to go shooting, but we went camping, and made a huge fuckoff bonfire. i only got about 3 hours of sleep, and those occured on rocks, so yeah. kinda tired, still catching up on that. the next morning, we had to get outta there at noon, so we got some breakfast, and then just hung around in chris' dorm til then. they have such a sweet setup for halo. they have 2 x-boxes hooked up to 2 tvs, as well as being wired into the ethernet, so we had 2 people in one room, on one tv, and 3 people in the other room on another. we played 3 on 3 team games, with the assistance of some other guy on the campus who joined in. that's all for now, i'll write more as the action breaks. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 19th, 2004
3:36 pm	Mommy mommy! look what i got peirced! i did it. i talked about it, but never thought i'd have the balls (no pun intended) to go thru with it. i dont kno what to call it though. in comparison to liz's christina, i guess it could be called a christian, cause i got a vert surface peircing going from the base of my cock up about an inch or so. it's HELLA sexy though. i just looked in the mirror at it, and hell yeah. it didnt hurt very bad either, which really suprised me, but im not gunna look that gift horse in the mouth. oh well, im having lunch, so bye. (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 16th, 2004
11:19 pm	another thing stolen from liz THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME 01 - drowing 02 - being alone 03 - i guess hights THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND 01 - women 02 - myself 03 - how to express yourself to someone who doesnt want to talk to u THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW 01 - watch 02 - buffalo hide bracelet i got today 03 - headphones THREE THINGS ON MY DESK 01 - computer 02 - iPod (headphones) 03 - crayons THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE 01 - sky-dive 02 - get a tattoo 03 - get married THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY 01 - childish, and mature. different moods, different maturity levels. 02 - spaz 03 - outgoing THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY 01 - more close-minded than i think i am, which i find out every once in a while. 02 - over thinking 03 - under thinking THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE 01 - italian 02 - swedish 03 - uh... engineer? THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY 01 - my penis 02 - my hair 03 - my height THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY 01 - my penis 02 - my muscles 03 - my fucking sweat glands, that love to just start dumping with the littlest bit of exertion THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU 01 - im shy 02 - i'm very paranoid about people not liking me 03 - i'm an INCREDIBLE liar, but i try to never lie anymore. i did it too much. THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST 01 - DUUUUDE! 02 - crazy 03 - uhhhhh THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO 01 - Italy 02 - sweden 03 - england THREE NICK NAMES YOU HAD 01 - bodisafa 02 - guido 03 - hippy THREE AOL SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE OR HAD 01 - biggerlamp (current) 02 - izacharydahl 03 - i never give out my third one. i rarely give out my second one. THREE PEOPLE YOU WILL BE SEEN WITH 01 - joanna 02 - chris 03 - jay (Comment on this)
11:17 pm	i wanna see what u kids think. 1. who are you? 2. are we friends? 3. when and how did we meet? 4. how have i affected you? 5. what do you think of me? 6. what's the fondest memory you have of me? 7. how long do you think we will be friends? 8. do you love me? 9. do you have a crush on me? 10. would you kiss me? 11. would you hug me? 12. physically, what stands out? 13. emotionally, what stands out? 14. do you wish i was cooler? 15. on a scale of 1-10, how hot am i? 16. give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 17. am i loveable? 18. how long have you known me? 19. describe me in one word. 20. what was your first impression? 21. do you still think that way about me now? 22. what do you think my weakness is? 23. do you think i'll get married? 24. what makes me happy? 25. what makes me sad? 26. what reminds you of me? 27. if you could give me anything what would it be? 28. how well do you know me? 29. when's the last time you saw me? 30. ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 31. do you think i could kill someone? 32. are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what i say about you? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
11:02 pm	fine then ok, i'll do this too. I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything. there's only 2 people who read this, im pretty sure, but yeah. i'm doing it anyway. (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 15th, 2004
2:54 pm	dreams i had a really strange dream, and i thought i should put it on here, or i'll end up forgetting it. it's not often that i remember dreams, so yeah. it's a little scetchy, but i was at a place that i knew as my own highschool, and i walked into this room and liz and this guy with a pony tail, (looked like brad pitt from troy) were just going at it full on. they stopped and i started talking to liz, and then joanna, my gf, walked in, and i was like "hey! are u part of this little thing too?" or something like that, and she said yeah, and i asked her what she was doing, and she just said "we didnt have sex," over and over again, each time i'd ask. Then i asked her again, and her and liz both said it at the same time. At this point we were walking down by these stores that were somehow next to my school, and she said, this isnt working out, we need to talk. I started to respond, but then my dad woke me up, at 9 fucking 30 on a saturday. asshole. oh well, that's as best as i can remember it, it just kinda scared me when i woke up, cause i remembered that joanna was breaking up with me, but i couldnt tell when it had happend rite then, and i felt really bad. then i realized it was a dream, but it still makes me kinda nervous. oh well, we'll see. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 12th, 2004
1:06 am	ok, i think i figured this out i think i kno how to add pictures to my entries now, so im trying it. this is just to see if it works, and if so, i have 3 pictures to match different kindsa feelings and whatever. fukit. first lets see if it works, then i'll figure out what i was trying to say. Current Mood: artistic Current Music: AFI - Half Empty Bottle (4 Comments |Comment on this)
12:51 am	been too long yeah, sorry. I've been a little busy, and i havent written anything since that first entry. WHOOPS! fuck me. anyway, tomorrow is joanna and my one month aniversary. that doesnt sound very exciting, but u have no idea what went into me committing to this girl. im going so far out on a limb, and i have this innate fear of her deciding she doesnt like me anymore. basically, i have a fear of having my heart broken. that's why it was so hard to open up and do this. but tomorrow, we're gunna hang out, she's gunna check out my room, which she hasnt seen since i put it back together. then we're going to dinner, and possibly a movie, but the event of the evening will be the free passes she got to the downtown DejaVu, which is the classiest of the local strip clubs. (not saying much.) But it's fun, and im getting cigars for us and everything. It's gunna kick ass. we were talking about getting a hotel room too, for the night, so we can have some time, UNINTERUPTED, as we've been unable to get that yet, for more than 30 minits or so. I bought her a box of candy, a little wood and glass keepsake box (only big enough to hold a ring or something, but really pretty all the same,) and a zippo kit, with a really cool silver lighter, fuel, and flints. cause she needs a good lighter. and tomorrow before i pick her up, im getting her a long stem rose. i think it willl be cute. ok, i'll talk to ya bitches LATER. or i might not, no one really reads this anyway. bodi Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Staind - Epiphany (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
11:53 pm	YAY! first entry! So i came over from OpenDiary.com, i dunno, i'll give this a shot, it seems cool being able to post your mood and music as well. if u want to check the backstory as far as it goes, my name on OD is "The Old Guy" that's all i have for now. Current Mood: giddy Current Music: Punk cover - "I want it that way" (2 Comments |Comment on this)